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Field Trip Day

Saturday, June 10, 2006

FIELD TRIP DAY!!!!! Been having loads of fun lately. Here is the running commentary as of... now.

An entry from Paul:
Absolutely Pathetic
That was a pathetic attempt to keep tabs on me or whatever you wanted to do to me, Jess. When you want to use someone that you don't like, you need to keep your cool; otherwise, the person you are trying to use won't like you or they might even figure it out. You have a lot to learn. You may be able to keep fools like Caitlin and David under submission, but you won't be able to keep those who happen to be a little more intelligent (a little *cough*). What's funny about this whole thing is that you cared about Lizzi. You actually cared. That's new for you. Did you feel guilty for abandoning her? Did you realize that she's the only person that you ever truly liked? Well, there was one other possibility, but in light of certain events, it is extremely illogical unless you are both insane. That I highly doubt. Well, I don't plan on talking to you again. You're a sly bitch, but that will backfire on you in the end. I don't appreciate being used, but I will remember how happy you made me feel. For that I thank you, but all things considered, I have no choice but to hate you and not give you another chance. And with that, I'm no longer being hypocritical with what I told Lizzi to do. Yeah, it was as hard as hell, but I'm not going to talk with you again. That's not saying that I can't talk to you.
This is going to go over real well. I just told off my gf's bff.

And now the comments regarding that:

Ruth:
Well Paul, I think you are a VERY, VERY smart person.After all, it took me two years to figure that out. But you were wrong on one point, according to that sly bitch (i like that i shall use it allot) but that may also be another of her many, MANY lies.I am referring to (of course) the statement that she only ever cared about Lizzy. But enough of that.I don’t know what you mean about, all us Aussies.No offence, but i never bitched about you, you live in another country, I never cared enough.Well this has been a nice chat.Now moving on...Oh and Rachael & David grow up, you already both know that she is a manipulative little whore why put on the gloves for her??Bye for now -roo

Rachael A:
idiot paul, jess csres about more than just lizzy. Ruth ur just a bitch! if u can't stick up for ur friends than ur not worth it! i hate u! u talk about jessie lying but what did u do! cheryl it's the same for u u r a bitch who thinks she is better than everyone else! Jess i luv u so much dw about them! u guys have no idea what jess has been through and have no right to say stuff like that about her! thank u david and rachael u r true friends! Not BACKSTABBERS (ruth & cheryl) u don't have to be friends with her but u could atleast have the guts to talk to the rest of us! Paul ur a dickhead seriously do u not have life enough to find friends near u! or ppl to bag out over there! or a girlfriend u have meet! And yes i will put gloves on for her! ur the manipulative little whor Ruth! Rachael no. 2

Ruth:
u talk about jessie lying but what did u do"How did I lie?? And why the fuck do you want me to stick up for her? Stop being such a little lesbian spoon loving lover and look at the person your protecting! I am not a backstabber because we aren’t friends, I AM STABBING HER IN HER FUCKING BYSEXUAL EYE!!! "if i cant stick up for my freinds"I do stick up for my friends I DONT stick up for lying fucking bisexual whores who blame me for ruining their life as soon as I see past her crappy little fucking shit mask that she calls her life!!And she doesn’t care about anyone but herself!!!I DO no what she has been through and I know its all crappy lies!Get out of my face cunt!"the guts to talk to the rest of us!"I do have the guts I just don’t go out of my way to talk to people who rejected me YOU HATED ME FIRST! You turned me away! IT’S YOUR FAULT IM A BITCH! Blame my argument with that leso all you want but it was all you people who took her fucking side of lies!!I don’t need you fucking bitch cunts anymore so piss off and stop calling me your friend just so you can call me a backstabber!She ruined my life!! If you cant see that YOU aren’t worth it

Also...dude i never sayd i was the magority just that he should have sayd mostand back to my rantingYou were the ones who didnt stick up for your friends I WAS YOUR FRIEND!!!YOU CHOSE HER SIDE!!YOU HATED ME!!!I WANTED TO DIE!! AND I STILL DO!!i know exactly what she has been through- NOTHING!!YOU DONT HAVE A FUCK WHAT YOU HAVE ALL PUT ME THROUGH I FELT LIKE EVERYONE HATED ME!!EVEN MY NEW FRIENDS HATE ME!!!YOU HAVE NO IDEA AND YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK!!!SO FUCK OFF AND STOP PLAYING WITH FIRE MANWHORE!!!

Cheryl:
You know what Rachael? IT'S THINGS LIKE THAT THAT MADE US MOVE!DAMN IT! IF YOU AREN'T SMART ENOUGH TO REALISE JUST HOW IDIOTIC YOUR BEING, THEN SCREW YOU. Oh, and "friends"? You made my life a living hell. I couldn't even be *ME*. And now I am me. And you know what else? I can finally express my opinion. And my opinion, you little self-loving, false-accusation making URCHIN, is that:RUTH AND I HAVE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH! SO UNLESS WE *WANT* TO TALK TO YOU, AND MAKE AN EFFORT TO TALK TO YOU, LEAVE US ALONE, BECAUSE WE DON'T CARE. I FOR ONE HATE SOME OF YOU, AND SOME OF YOU I DON'T. YOU'LL KNOW IF I HATE YOU. OH, AND BTW, "racheal 2." ... I HAVE HONESTLY STOPPED CARING ABOUT YOUR OPINION.OH, AND ONE MORE THING..."friends."YOU WERE NEVER MY FRIEND! THE NUMBER OF TIMES--YOU, JESSIE, JOSIE AND NUMEROUS OTHERS HAVE GONE AND TALKED BEHIND MY BACK AND FULL-ON BITCHED ABOUT ME. GOD, AND THEN YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO FUCKING TELL ME THAT YOU *WERE* MY FRIEND? GET A LIFE. AND MAYBE GO TO A SHRINK, BECAUSE IF YOU FALL FOR HALF OF THE THINGS THAT LYING PYSCHO-FREAK HAS SAID, YOU NEED IT. AND JESSIE, YOU HAVEN'T EVEN COMMENTED YET. LOST YOUR NERVE? WHATEVER. DON'T CARE. BASIC POINT; YOU'RE A LIAR. YOU TALKED ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK, AND YOU WERE ALWAYS WIERDLY JEALOUS OF ME--AND YOU ADMITTED IT, I HAVE PROOF, SO DON'T SAY YOU DIDN'T. AND YOU INVENT THINGS, MANIPULATE PEOPLE AND BASICALLY...YOU ANNOY ME SOMETIMES. THAT'S MY OPINION. OH, AND SEEING AS I "RUINED YOUR LIFE" AND "LIED"...WHATEVER. THE ONLY WAY *I* WAS LYING, WAS BECAUSE YOU WERE. BECAUSE ANYTHING I TOLD MIKE, YOU TOLD ME. SO YOU ONLY HAVE YOURSELF TO BLAME.DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ANYONE ELSE? NO. YOU DON'T. BECAUSE MOST OF YOU ARE SELF-OBSSESSED BITCHES (AGAIN, NOT CAITLIN, SARAH, RACHAEL BRYCE OR AIMEE. OR KAYLA. OR TAMMY). AND DAVID...I DIDN'T *HAVE* ANY FRIENDS. NOW I DO.AND LASTLY...I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK I'M A BACKSTABBER, BECAUSE I WAS GETTING MY OWN BACK. YOU STABBED ME IN THE BACK FIRST. SO GET OVER IT.

OH, RACHAEL 2. BTW:WE WERE THE FUCKING ONES DEALING WITH IT--ME & RUTH. JESSIE TOLD ME IF IT WASN'T FOR ME AND RUTH, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN DEPRESSED AND GIVEN UP. SHE TOLD ME THE SECOND TIME I WENT TO HER HOUSE. I DON'T HEAR A RACHAEL A. IN THERE. DO YOU?THE ANSWER (I FIGURE SEEING AS YOU ASSOCIATE WITH JESSIE STILL, YOU MAY HAVE DIFFICULTY FIGURING IT OUT) IS NO. YOU DON'T. SO SUFFER.

Rachael A:
cheryl what have u actually been through? and jess said that when u were pretending to actually be her friend! if u were such good friends of hers where r u now when she needs u more and more! if i am so small mionded y do i understand everything ur saying? and yes u r a backstabber both of u! Ruth u chosse not to talk to us, we ddn't hate u and at that stage we didn't know what was going on with u and Jess! Rachael B says she always goes out of her way to talk to u and u just ignore her or only just ackknoledge she is there! We all wanted 2 talk to u but u couldn't even talk to us so we r not the ones that choose to lose our friends and yes cheryl we did bitch about u and with good reason UR A STICK-UP BITCH! did u know ever since u left the group we don't bitch! except about u! paul i feel sorry for u! u have no idea about jessie! david and rachael r awesome and so r tammy, aimee, caitlin, molly, sarah, kayla, josie and JESSIE! can u tell me one lie of jessie's and if u can prove them! we could tell u many lies of urs! Paul how do u know jessie is a lesbian? and i have a feeling u r still gay urself!

Got it? Okay on to entry number two!

Paul:
attacks... And responses...
David- "paul for god sakes u keep saying u wont talk to us again, then the next entry is about us even to us (us australians that is) so if you finally decide not to talk to us, stop making entries about us and live up to what u say assehole"
What I said in my post- "I'm not going to talk with you again. That's not saying that I can't talk to you."
Rachael- "you really need to change that i don't beleive my remarks are all that stupid. sly bitch and u call you self religous huh well that's not the perspective i'm getting so paul does those like david and caitlin include me cause if so u obviously don't no me that well and i was right in my assumptions about americans and wrong about you, also i don't apreciate my perfectly smart friends [ even if david is a bit dopy ] fools, sigh i'v calmed down now sorry i have a very strong opinion and i tend to stick to it unless i'm proven wrong."
That's self-explanatory. "sorry i have a very strong opinion and i tend to stick to it unless i'm proven wrong" And unfortunately for her, if it can be proven wrong, it's not an opinion.
David- "ruth i dont really care what u do but i stick up for my friends"
That much is true. David is a nice kid and really dedicated to his "friends" which he really does believe to be his true friends. I really believe that David's a sweet guy, but he needs to figure out who his true friends are. I know at least he has one, and she's not going to backstab him ever. I'd also like to point out that David is and was the only one in the group that wasn't pompous, arrogant, self-centered, and cruel. In fact, he didn't really say anything when he was angry. Don't insult him. He's just being too stubborn to consider that I might be right (which I am).
Yes, Ruth, you were right. That WAS one of the many lies she told. You see, that was the only explanation that made some sense at the time. But one thing kept bothering me. If she cared about Lizzi, why was she trying to hit on me? If she wanted to break us up, why did she do it in that way? And besides, that's not Jessie's sexual orientation. Why would she do that just to break Lizzi and me up? There were four things that could have possibly been:
1. She cared about Lizzi and wanted to break us up because she thought I wasn't a good person. (What she eventually said...)
2. She was angry at me and doesn't give a damn about Lizzi.
3. She was jealous of Lizzi and doesn't give a damn about her.
4. She is attracted to Lizzi and wants me out of the way at any cost.
1 is not true because she almost drove Lizzi to suicide and she still didn't stop. 2 can't be true because she is still talking to Lizzi at no benefit to her. That leaves 3 and 4. Now, naturally they both make sense. I know that Jess is a lesbian, and I know Jess is jealous of Lizzi. However, it has to be 4 because she still has Lizzi at no apparent benefit to her. Now, I can't exactly be mad at her for being a lesbian. I was a fag myself. (Yeah, it finally comes out. Everyone might as well know.) But if you are thinking about my girlfriend like that and trying to break us up to pursue homosexuality, I can't really forgive that.
Everything is falling into place (still not sure about the lesbian thing, though). THAT is why she didn't care that I had been manipulating her. She was hitting on me to break Lizzi and me up. She still wanted to talk to me even though she hated my guts so she could use me. Now, that leaves the question "why?" I only have one seemingly far-fetched explanation.
I'd like to point out that I deserved that "religious" comment; however, she never mentioned it any time before. No one did. It was a half insult half compliment. I'll give her her credits for being able to manipulate so many people (much like Caroline, but I hate Caroline more because she uses the Bible to manipulate others).
There's one big problem. Jess is still going to try to break Lizzi and me up and will probably used the conversation to do so. But you see, she loves me, and I love her more than anything. No one has ever been able to break us up before. NO ONE! No matter how hard they try... SO BRING IT ON BITCH! Give it your best shot! I could take you with my hands tied behind my back.

Rachael A:
prickle! anywayz moving on! actually no pric! anywayz mving on again! lizzi deserves better than u! how did jess drive liz to near suicide plz explain?????? leso aye??? plz explain that to?????? ruth it is ur fault u have no friends! we still wanted to talk to u we didn't take sides but y should we move from where we sit becoz that would seem like we took sides! u deserve those ppl to hate u! and u haven't been through half of ur life so how do u know that jess ruined it?? ok well i am going so rachael can comment!

Rachael B:
well this is interesting i can't put how mad i am in words so i will try my best, U R THE BIGGEST FUCKING LYING LOSER I HVE EVER SPOKEN TO AND I WISH U ALL WOULD DROP DEAD THIS INSTANT [all of u being paul ruth and cheryl] I thought i was your friend ruth and cheryl i guess i was wrong but then again when am i ever right according to you guy's never. i guess you will probably not even pay attention to this cause nothing i say matters apparently. attracted to lizzi that is the biggest BULL SHIT i have ever heard. FUCK YOU YOU BLOODY IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ruth:
Thanks Rachael you just proved to me that I DIDNT ruin spoon lady’s life, moronYou know what we mean when we say she is a bi-sexual or a leso! She "admitted" that she was in love with me you little skank!It SEEMS like you took sides by sitting with her not me it was YOUR CHOISE and you didn’t give a fuck about me so you went with her! you chose her fucking side, don’t even pretend you didn’t bitch about me before these fucking arguments!And Bryce at the moment I wouldn’t mind dropping dead, you can come over and do the honors if you like!STOP SAYING I WAS A BACKSTABBER CAUSE THAT WOULD MEAN I WAS HER FRIEND!I NEVER SAYD I WAS HER "GREAT FRIEND" I HATE HER!Rachael A, of course you understand everything we say! we are writing in English aren’t we!!!? You just cant see the truth in it! Like I said - MORON!!!Paul I think you are right, you DO deserve to love someone who loves you back, and that is lizzy.I'm sorry I started yelling at people on your xanga too.Anyway all you little fucktards should stop making people feel bad for telling the truth.Oh and btw, one of her lies would be when she said I was her friend.

That's it for the moment - a little full on, don't you agree? I AM KINDA MAD AT RUTH NOW SHE CALLED RACHAEL A SKANK THIS IS BETWEEN ME AND HER! HOW DARE SHE INSULT MY FRIENDS????

Actually... I'm kinda enjoying this. A little more drama is just what I needed. Life was getting boring. I know, I know, I'm mad. But hey. Who couldn't use a little more drama in their life??

I LOVE YOU 5:30 PM